As you pop your babies to bed this evening tell them…let them know ..
….in every way
You are loved
You are love…
You are perfect as you are
You are enough…. what you are, what you do, feel, know and say….is enough… wonderfully
You are seen
You are heard
You are felt
…. you are known …
In every way
Remember dear child ….
You are love … here to stay
Shine your way
As you drift of to sleep tonight … say this … to you…. remember dear child….
I have anxiety come to visit. Sometimes it would stay for a longtime, to long. Sometimes I could just move it along, quickly. Sometimes it wouldn’t visit for weeks, months, a year. Sometimes it just sneaks up on me, unaware.
what if …. ?
what if …. i can’t?
what if …. i can’t jump?
what if …. it doesn’t work?
what if…. i am not good enough?
I can help there It says
what if i step in? i can help…. i can
what if i whisper to your mind….. beware, beware, beaware… quietly, just a whisper
what if i give you sweaty hands just to start you off, just so you know i am here…like a “knock, knock… can i come it”
what if i just swirl your stomach, just gently to start. little waves. then i can make bigger, until the waves are lap against the bottom of chest and splash to your throat
I squeeze so tightly that you feel your beat…. faster, and faster, harder and harder, faster,
what if i take my hand and squeeze your heart. Tighter, tighter, tighter…. Squeeze so tight that it feels like there is a pounding and a constricting all at the same time….in your chest, in your ears, like the blood is going to erupt from every vain in your body.
what if i do the same to your throat? grip it. on fire. dry your mouth. your tongue doesn’t move. you wont have to speak then. not a word. i can do all the talking. i have lots of words
what if i send your mind feeling crazy
what if i send your hands and feet numb
what if you don’t have to move
what if i send you tears… what if i send you to your knees… what if i send you into a tiny little ball, on the ground. Look i will place a blanket over you. You don’t have to look out
There my dear, you don’t have to move. you don’t have to jump. you don’t have to feel, you don’t have to be seen
What if in that ball, i hug me. What if i embrace me with love
what if when I hear you call … beware, i hear be aware, and i am
what if when i hear you knock…. i say thank you, thankyou for calling by, but i have had enough, and then send you on your way
i have another way
what if when my heart starts to pound …. i feel the excitement instead of fear. what if i start to breath, what if i feel my heart explode with love….expand
what if i talk, to myself, to others, share
what if with tingling… i come alive, i feel passion and life and love
what if i am seen
what if … i could change that?
what if I just jump
what if i can, head first, feet first, one foot first
what if….I am enough
what if …..?